I understand from your words that the freedom that feeding brought to your life is hard to control (you don't want to control anymore) then I would suggest you to keep eating and making yourself happy and fat. When your partner comes back she will find a new you, if she really loves you she will be more than pleased to see freedom and happiness in your eyes. If this doesn't happen it means it's time for both of you to look forward. Good luck!
5 years
